At This Episode of Life

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I feel numb.

There is a lot of things in my mind that make me worried about my future.

Somethings makes me anxious, rage grows in my gut its feel like it can eat me alive.

Disappointment lead to another disappointment, makes me questioning whats the point of life if we suffer a lot like this?

Pertama Kali Nonton Konser

 Holaaaa!

Jadi aku mau flashback nih, pas akhir Februari kemarin aku nonton konser!!!

Lines and Walls, Trust and Be Honest to Yourself

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That's when someone come, I tends to draw a line, build walls, but deep inside I'm rooting for someone that will stay with me, someone that never give up and understand, someone that keep me as cuma saya jii yang ada. Because this trust issue and insecurity feels like hell for me.

Bitter and loneliness that eat me from inside. There is a hole that filled with never ending worry and uneasy and fear. It makes me pity myself, why am I like this?

 Horrible mess.

Banyak dan Sedikit

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Jika orang lain yang kau kejar, lantas apa arti dari seluruh percakapan ini? Jam-jam malam yang dihabiskan di telepon? Kiriman-kiriman instragram lucu berikut curahan-curahan hari yang melelahkan?
Jangan membuat bingung.

Woah Ngeri Sendiri

Hari ini perasaanku tidak enak.

Rasa-rasanya terlalu banyak hal-hal negatif di kepalaku dan aku lelah dengan hal ini. Seperti ada batu besar yang menyumbat dadaku,begitu susah di keluarkan. Rasanya ingin menangis saja tapi tidak bisa. Ingin menangis sambil berteriak kencang sekali. Aku tidak habis pikir, mengapa aku begitu jahat hanya dengan mikirkan hal-halyang jahat dan buruk. Mengapa aku terus-terusan seperti ini.

Woah, jangan sampai kamu menangis di depan laptopmu sambil bekerja.

Ya

Kamu akan baik-baik saja karena hidup hanya sementara dan tidak ada yang lebih penting daripada rasa senang di dadamu yang akan mekar pada waktunya.

Maleficent 2: Makanya Jangan Sok Berkuasa

Maleficent 2: Mistress of Evil

There are a lot of things that I should post--scratch--write, but I'm too lazy to do that (I'm so busy for sleeping). For this post, like what the tittle said, I want to talk about the movie that I just watch. Maleficent 2: Mistress of Evil. Its not a review, maybe this is just a random talking about Maleficent, the 'villain' but actually not a villain.