What are You Doing?!!!!1111!!!

Tuesday, February 27, 2018

I made it! Just finish the base.


: Ummm, Rin, what are you doing?

: I'm crocheting.

: Can you tell me why you do that?

: Because I want it!

: I think you have something more important that crocheting.

: I can’t help but keep thinking about it. I want to do this now. You can’t wait for creativity! It will... it will disappear, the urge to make something by your own hand and you will feel empty, and it will blow your mind and you will sad.

: But you have---

: Don't tell me what I should do.

: But I---

: Fine! Fine! Fine!

: Stop it now. And please, do everything you should and finish it today.

: Finish it? My crochet project?

: No!!!! You asjdhfjdsgkl!@#$%^&*!!!!

: You don't have to be so upset.

: You dumb. Doing stupid thing all the time.

: You are the cruelest person I ever know. Why I’m stuck with you?

: Keep saying that thing. That will not change that you and me are the same person.

: I hate you.

: Like I’m not. Puh-leaseeeeee. Do your work. I’m tired at the same stage all the time with this whinny-whinny-stress-piƱata above me. It’s like they can explode any time.

: Hah.I will end this part, and do my 'important work'. Okay?

: *give intense stare* I'm watching you!
***

Just some random people talking inside my head.
I know I should continue to work at my skripsi, it's already fourth... fifth day since i abandoned them? I feel tired all the time and I don't know the reason why I feel like that. 

Well, now... I should continue work on my skripsi. I should finish one chapter before I start my crochet again (or something else).

#badgrammar
#peopleinthecityofmyhead

Cerita Bodo-Bodo Dulu

Monday, February 26, 2018

here


Hola, kembali lagi ke Diary Depresyqu.

Hum.
How my feeling today?
Numb. Yeah, I'm numb. Not happy, not sad, exhauted, yes. Tired, yes. Too sensitive, easily iritated with some 'noise'.
Aku mau memulai episode mengeluh-mengeluhku karena diri ini yang yah sangat payah sekali. Hal yang sama berulang-ulang kali.
Where is my will? Where is my life? What should I do? Why I'm like this?
Doing sme shit over and over again. What should I do to stop living like this? This miserable life?Stop doing stupid thing?

Someone deep inside the forest of thought in my head: Start by doing your shit done, bastard!

I Don't Know How To

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

yeah?

Akhir-akhir ini gue ngerasa makin berat aja hidup gue. Kenapa?
Nggak tahu. Ada masa di mana hal-hal random, perasaan-perasaan acak mampir begitu saja di dalam kepala gue dan mengacak-acak isinya.